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My name is Emily and I like fresh starts. I read books and knit things and bake pies.
But mostly I just wait. So it goes.
Because I honestly don’t see the problem with adding to my medication. Five milligrams more of an antidepressant won’t kill me. I’m only on fifteen right now, what’s the harm in twenty? I just. I don’t know. I feel the way I used to all the time, and I can’t figure out if I’m just genuinely unhappy or if the meds aren’t working anymore.
I don’t know. I don’t know.
The worst part with these pills is the dreams they give me. I hate these dreams. If I don’t wake up screaming, I wake up and spend the rest of the day wishing they were real.
I don’t know.
its the ones whove cracked that the light shines through 2 (detail) (via this is limbo)
I wish I weren’t mad at Erika. I’d quite like to talk to her.
My acceptance to Geneseo came today. Tori didn’t get in.
I’ve found the prom dress I want.
I wish I had someone to take me to prom. I have this sudden and strange desire to go with Alex. He barely ever speaks, but he’s so sweet. Or I’d like to go with Chris, and we could have an anti-prom-prom-date.
These dreams are going to kill me one of these days.
Strange things happen to paintings that no one looks at. They start to sing. In the absence of people, the empty room reverberated with the colors humming on its walls. Ben stood alone and listened as each wide flash of color vibrated at a different pitch: wistful wavering high notes for the airborne woman, deep resonating low tones for the Lovers in Blue. The dark little picture rattled the air with banging of piano keys like the ones that once lay below it in his parents’ living room, a minor chord struck by accident in the middle of a song.
I don’t believe that you can be in love with more than one person at a time. Not that you can’t love multiple people, you just can’t be in love with more than one person. It doesn’t make sense to me. It seems like people who say that they’re in love with two people at once are just trying to justify it to themselves.
I gotta disagree on this one. Maybe its just a you-cant-understand-until-it-happens sort of thing?
If nothing else, I know some folks who have been in long term poly relationships, and I imagine all three of them really are in love with the other two.
You’re probably right. I guess I just can’t imagine it. But also I guess it is entirely dependent on the person. I know that I could never be in a relationship with someone who is in love with someone else as well. I am far too jealous a person for that.
(via youretheocean)
Before being born, his mother explained, babies go to school. Not a school like his, but a different kind of school, where all the teachers are angels. The angels teach each baby the entire Torah, along with all of the secrets of the universe. Then, just before each baby is born, an angel puts its fingers right below the baby’s nose - here she paused to put her finger across his lips - and whispers to the child: Shh - don’t tell. And then the baby forgets.
I don’t believe that you can be in love with more than one person at a time. Not that you can’t love multiple people, you just can’t be in love with more than one person. It doesn’t make sense to me. It seems like people who say that they’re in love with two people at once are just trying to justify it to themselves. It really annoys me.
(via Luminous Lu)
